So much more

It was my 3 week anniversary yesterday with ES.

It feels like it's been much longer though.

You see, the first piece of contact I got from her was a comment right back in November which saved my life (along with some other comments I received around that time). It was a most beautiful comment in which she said that I was capable of stealing her heart.

I realised I liked her around the 15th of December, when her comment was all I could think about, so I tried various things to get in contact with her, eventually, I just decided to leave my email address.

She declared to me last night that she found me interesting and as soon as she started reading my blog she fell for me and that I was a person she could spend time with.

Which is weird, because I thought the same about her and we didn't even know each other and the only things she knew about me were what she had read from November until my first post. Which is all sex and depression.

Anyway so I declared that I was falling for her on the 15th December and then some time around that, I left my email.

You've heard this story before. Sorry for repeating it again.

She never got in contact with me. This is because she spelt my msn address wrong. She still commented once a month though, but we never had a full conversation and so I figured she didn't want to personally get to know me.

Until I recieved a friend request on facebook. You should have felt how I felt that day when I saw it come up. It was amazing. So we got talking on facebook and then we added each other on msn sometime during march.

We spoke every single day since then and each time I spoke to her, each time I realised my feelings for her were intensifying. So I've actually liked her for 9/10 months already, despite only recently telling her I loved her. It's weird that we resisted each other for so long, but good that we got re-connected.

Can you believe I've actually spoken to her every day for 6 month and that she still likes me, even after reading all about me and seeing what I'm really like in my natural habitat?

We went from a comment a month, to speaking continuously and actually being together in only a short amount of time.

Anyway, she also made sort of an advertisement for who she wanted, a long time before we got talking.

The ad describes me, more or less.

She also used to watch Raggy Dolls and reads Postsecret.

If this does not prove she is my soulmate, nothing will.

I'm hoping this 3 week can turn into 3 month, at least because I feel very confident about it.

Very confident.

So what I wonder is, do you ever feel like 'I love you' just isn't enough?

Because I've liked her for a very long time and the words 'i love you' just don't seem to fully portray everything I feel.