Thursday, 7 January 2010

Down with the sickness

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Thanks.

Ok, this would have been posted yesterday, had I not been up-chucking all evening.

Gah I hate vomiting. I have some dodgy viral throat thing and it gives me headache, makes me feel sick and have a nasty voice. Not good. I'm like violently puking too. Whilst bent over the loo, I look quite fragile and throwing up makes it very difficult to breathe so I retch and my whole entire upper body aches like a bitch. Then it gave me hiccups, because I couldnt breathe.

Anyway, So I havent been at school since monday because on tuesday and wednesday we had snow days.

On tuesday I created a SnowBill. Here he is:
[IMG]http://i493.photobucket.com/albums/rr299/Turner_08/DSC00402.jpg[/IMG]

On wednesday, I met a guy from secondary school. He's like 18/19. He wants to lose his virginity to me. I might have already mentioned it.

Anyway, so we met up and chatted for ages. Then the conversation turned very sexual and then it turned to the future and he was all like 'well when were married I guess we can have sex on a plane.' He actually started talking about us being married with kids and shit. Two things I don't particularly want. He must be really desperate. Poor guy.

Oooh but I had total control. I managed to massively turn him on without touching him or allowing him to touch me. I was just a massive tease and left him wanting more. It went very well in my opinion. I think at some point we will just have sex and that will be it. We both get what we want then. It won't go no further. I don't want a relationship. Not with him anyway.

Infact, i'm worried I'll never have another typical relationship. I think I'm broken. Dumb fucking Alex.

I started my diet on monday. I've not done bad so far. I keep exercising and shit so hopefully, I'll lose it quicker and then feel better about myself because right now I feel fucking awful. The depressive feeling has come back and I just don't know what to do with myself.
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2 comments:

  1. Anonymous7 January 2010 at 19:37

    awwww babe, plz dont feel sad, how can i cheer u up??? xxx

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  2. Helen 'Bee' Pugh8 January 2010 at 00:24

    Danke sweetie! *squishes*
    Btw, your img code isn't working, I can't see Bill =( (Even though he's on my blog for me to look at anyway xD)
    You've started a new diet? Me too! Well, generally a healthier LIFE regime. We can help eachother thru it =) xx

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