I'm drowning in despair.
I feel awfully fat and terrible and unloved.
I just want to be held, y' know? I want someone to tell me they love me just the way I am.
But I don't feel good enough.
For the last couple of days, I've been bleeding brown stuff and I was like 'oh my god. There's something more that's wrong with me' so, I googled it. Apparently it's normal. Still, it's never happened before and I'd prefer it if it didn't happen again.
Since last week i've felt nasty.
I'm so tired and stressed and worried that I'll fail all of my exams because I won't be able to breathe when I get in there.
My doctor doesnt seem to be calling back.
I think she's given up on me too.
I keep crying out of frustration.
I havent eaten since half 11 and it's now ten past 6. I can't wait for this damned baby to be born, it's making my mum horrible. She's always tired too.
Why is it so damn hard to have a relationship? How is it possible to go to school were there are like 500 people that you see every day and not one of them likes you.
Am I really that disgusting?
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ReplyDeleteyou're not that disgusting. you're not even a little bit disgusting. even if you tried. (:
+ finally.
I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.
now please grab some food.
L;♥
Wow, I've never seen pretty much my every thought written down by someone who isn't me before! Well, the first and last paragraph at least. Don't worry hun, things will improve, they always do eventually... And even if they don't? At least you know you have me now who is drowning in exactly the same leaking boat as you *hugs* xx
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