Monday night, i rang MH, we were tlking & then i told him he needed to get over his ex. Obviously, he didnt take it well. We fell out again :/
Snowman slept at mine on tuesday.
I got ready, then we went to pick her up at 3. Before getting her, i ate some fish. Be amazed.
After getting her, we went to Asda. it was pretty good to say it was just shopping. Then we went in search of a Video library...mum took the detour...so we were driving round for a good hour. I love driving in places i've never been to. I just like sitting there, taking in the sights, listening to the radio and still having the fresh air. I especially love driving fast.
We found the video shop & got some dvds :/ Then we dropped kids off and went home.
MH didn't reply to any of my texts.:(
But i was really happy. I guess i know he loves me. Least i think he does. I know we'll get through this fallout & become stronger.
I looked like a porcelain doll too apparently. Haven't decided if that's good or not yet.
Felt nice to spend abit of time with Snowman though. We've not been close since i got with MH...i'm still trying to figure out the balance. Life would be easier if we all hung out together.
Snowman & I went on Guitar Hero: World Tour. We kick ass at that!!
When my mum went out, we just had a laugh. pissed about like we usually do. being immature idiots.
I went on msn & MH was on. Perfect time to get things sorted with him. So w got talking & yeppp, he was pissed off majorly. But he's overreacting a teensy bit....cz it's always my fault. But i feel like i'm the one really trying to work at this. Fair enough, i'm a lot more flawed than he is..but i ring him, i text him, i've also changed abit for him & he just argues with me for little stuff like saying something stupid. Ok, it was pretty stupid but, totally blown out of proportion. I don't want to talk about his ex all the time. No, il clear that up. We don't talk about her all the time, just some of the time but it makes me feel awkward. I don't know what to do.
So, me and Snowman eventually went to bed. In my sister's bed ;) I had flashbacks the whole night. tehe.
We watched this really shit film called 'Seed'. I don't recommend it. The whole time, i was thinking of the msn convo i'd had with MH and the phone cal I'd had with my dad.
The thing about my dad is...I met him last year for the first time. Know he has a new girlfriend, he's totally selling me out for her. Every other comment on his facebook is about his awsome girlfriend. I feel totally left out & like she's suddenly coming before me. Like she's totally taken my place. He's MY dad. Hands off bitch. Nah, im joking, she's lovely. He hasn't rang me in a week because he's been 'busy'. Yeah, probably up all night fucking that slag. God! I hope nobody reads this.
Sooo.....back to MH & Snowman. Me & her were in bed & she put Russell Howard's dvd on. Which is funny as fuck btw. YOU MUST WATCH IT!!!!
He was telling an anecdote about the time him & a crowd tried to save a man from killing himself. He was telling the story & i'm thinking 'poor suicidal guy. I used to know how he felt'. Then he tells us what this old guy said which saved the man...& what he said really hit me. It was so beautiful, so truthful yet so poetic. I actually started crying. Ha. i bet i'm the oly poor sod to start crying at a comedian's dvd.
When that had finished, me & snowman bummed Russell Howard abit...then we got seriously tlking. I brought up the MH dilemma. :/ She gave me abit of advice. Ouch! It really hurt. She was right but I didn't want to admit that incase i lost him. So i started crying again. Huge blobby tears too. She realised and was straight to my aid. Hugs and everything. She even played with my hair a bit to sooth me. Then we fell asleep.
Woke up today really early.
i cba writing anymore. il post again when i feel better.
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