A while back........

I found this...which is from my old blog stored on my comp. But it needs to go in here. for future life. when, in 10 year, i find this page and decide to read through my teen life. So here it is anyway:

MH was meant to be coming to mine today but he rang early on saying it was all awkward & that he had to get loadsa different buses. Loads my arse! it's only one bloody bus. Anyway so he asked if i wanted to go to his. In my opinion, it was a fantastic idea but mum didnt warm to it too well. After some nagging, i gave up & rang him to tell him i couldnt come.  :(

He then said 'so do you still want me to come to yours?'

My heart stopped. he wanted to see me that badly that he was going to catch some buses. He could of just cancelled, i mean he is seeing me on friday...but nooo...he wanted to see me today :)

So, I started to do my make up then went down for breakfast. The phone rang again.

Mum put on her 'phone voice' which is a dead give-away that it is for me.

(you know what i mean by phone voice right....where adults talk all posh if its someone they dont know?!)

i took the phone & MH was on the other end. He was cancelling today...something to do with no money.Oh & he was really really sorry. It's a bloody good job I'm used to crappy phone calls isnt it.  

All the same though, I didnt cope well with it.

A lump occured in my throat, my eyes welled up, i began to wheeze & tears fell from my cheeks. Unfortunately, my mum saw. :(

Seriously not good. I mean,i was fucking crying just because I couldn't see him for three hours in a day. 

Am I falling in love with him? Holy shit, i hope not. After my ex, i vowed I would never fall in love again. Surely it can't be happening to me this quickly. I'm in great dispair.

Usually, msn helps me feel better so i signed in. MH was online. we talked, he apologised more, said he reeeaaaallllly wanted to see me & that he felt compelled to buy me something.

I told him i was fine, it didnt matter. Blatantly lying though. So instead, he offered to shower me in hugs & kisses next time he saw me. Now that was an offer i couldnt dismiss.

Abit more talking, about boxing day this time. (He's sleeping at mine :p) I told him i was wearing my sexy tights. This made him happy :) He likes them tights. As do I.

Here they are:

Then he said he would try a faithless on me. Oh how i lol'ed.

just so you know, faithless is the guy/band that sings insomnia...so he was referring to their lyrics. The part which goes (8) tearing off tights with my teeth (8)

Mum called me to go to shop with her, in a car that could kill us btw.

 (something to do with it's shaft. ;) how kinky ;) 

When I came back, MH had gone. But he put 'Ly'! 

tehe...i kinda miss him. :/

Not much else really happened today.

Oh apart from the fact that I'm obsessed with fanfics (Tokio Hotel ones to be precise) & I'm turning into a hermit....that was my tuesday.

i hope youre life is better than mine.

So yeah, that's a blog of mine from before i fell in love with him...well when I was going through the transition i guess.