lovely bones

Ben said the L word. He said it post sex, in such a long winded posh fashion that I had to ask him if that was indeed what he said. It was. Oh how my heart feels full when I think of him and how it feels sad when I'm not with him. I'm so used to having him around that when I went home this weekend, it was strange and everything felt a bit distant.

See, on Saturday I took Ben to a museum and then we went to Bella Italia for some dinner before I had to catch my train. Only I could sense I was late and it makes me so angry and anxious and then I ended up missing my train anyway which made the situation worse. It was at this point when ben decided he was leaving to go do some work which is perfectly understandable now I'm rational. However, stood in the train station with heavy bags, freezing, being late and knowing I have to wait does not make me happy, so for Ben to ask if it's ok if he goes just made me feel abandoned.

Anyway, he went. So I texted him with a slightly angry text and at some point, he text me with a reasonably angry text. While it was obviously meant to question my sanity it made me feel so nice, like I could tell that he cared.

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