I don't want to be in anymore relationships. I don't feel it's worth it.
All that chasing and anxiety and stress, for what? Just to get blown out. It's a waste of time.
Like, why do people even have relationships?
I think of them and how we put in so much time and energy into every single relationship we have. Our partners know our darkest secrets, our biggest fears, our repressed embarrassing childhood memories. They see us naked, legs spread, completely trusting with eyes full of love and need and want- the most vulnerable state. They hear our orgasms - the most intimate noise a person can make and for what?
Why do we give ourselves so wholly each and every time?
Is being alone really that bad?
Will we honestly die if we go without 'i love yous' and morning cuddles and goodnight kisses?
I figure that there's a 80% chance that yes, we will die. However, I'm willing to give this a try.
Fuck attempting to make relationships work. I'm just going to hook up with people when the chance arises.
I don't need a soul mate.
I'm so angry and sad and relieved.
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Sorry for not commenting for so long. So, you regret getting in a relationship with her? Life is all about hurt I think sometimes. I don't think you should EVER regret the feelings you grew for a person.
ReplyDeleteIt's a bitch, I know but nevertheless, it's a part of who we are I think.
Alkyoni; I don't regret being with her. I like her very much. I miss her a lot. Yet I'm happy without her. I was happy with her too, but it couldn't have carried on. It just couldnt. The fact that I don't want another relationship doesn't mean I regret her.
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