give me attention

She just spoke to me. Waste of time.  

I only want a bit of her attention. I just want her to see that I'm fine. That I'm happy. 

I haven't hurt myself over this. Nobody knows this nor appreciates it. I only want her to be proud of me. 

I was just trying to be civil and friendly. If anything I miss her as a friend, miss just talking to her.Miss waiting for her to come online, nagging her about the letter she was meant to be posting me. She was the only one who understood how much I'm going through. 

Maybe I'm angry at her. I don't really know. I'm just full of so much rage right now and I don't know how to deal with it. 

I've been wanting to hurt myself since Tuesday and I haven't. Maybe I'm solved.

Exams are on Monday. I'm upset about this. I don't feel like I know anything.