breaking the habits

I can't remember the last time I blogged. I apologise for that.

Apparently, I'm a self-harm superwoman and should have comics created about me.

Although I disagree with this statement, if anyone feels like creating me a comic...i'd appreciate it greatly.

I almost hurt myself this morning...and then thought not to. My mum was all depressed and she took it out on me, saying I don't understand or anything, when I clearly do.

I never even got as far as picking up my razor. See, I'm breaking the habit.

All week at school we're doing higher education stuff. It's awful. Seriously.

Were stuck in our forms, where I talk to no one and we have no frees.

It's confusing as fuck too.

University has never had me so stressed and worn out.

Particularly the cost of it.

I really want to move away and live on campus but, for York....rent a week is between 80 pound and 110 pound, which is more than my mum's mortgage.

I'm never going to come up with that kind of money.

Money ruins everything.

I'll probably have to become a prostitute to pay for everything.

Also, now my mum knows about the extortionate prices....she's trying to persuade me to stay home for the first year at the least.

I don't fucking want to.

I want to learn how to wash up. I want to just throw myself into the experience. Hell, I don't even care about sharing one bathroom with 6 other people. I just want that entire experience of university and there's no way I'll get that if I'm at home. You know?

It's my birthday next week. I'm 17. Fairly excited.

Although I have no reason to be, because I'm home alone and at school until 7.30.

The new Humanoid dvd comes out soon. I have no money. My life fails.

Also, my sister has a better social life than me. She's 12.

It's a depressing fact.

Fox, my 'online boyfriend' has barely spoken to me in ages. We don't talk as much anymore. I wonder if he's getting bored of me. After all, I am only an 8 out of 10 and there are other girls that are much better.

I need a haircut.

Oh and I self-tanned earlier. Lets hope it makes me look sexy.