Disenchantment

I had a discussion last night about feminism and I've been thinking about it since.
All of the women I know are slaves to patriarchy. Not one woman is free thinking and completely in control. Not even my mother. Although she likes to pretend she is, there are odd moments when her boyfriend downright dominates her. 
Even I have been a victim of male oppression as Alex decided which friends I could see, when we'd meet up and when we'd have sex.
Even my nana, the lonely old spinster, turned bitter because of men, and my gran who puts up with so much bullshit just so she gets some warmth on a night.


In general i am disgusted by humankind as there are only a few times in which someone will achieve a random act of kindness. And i don't know, maybe that's how its meant to be so the kindness is noticed more often. Either way I don't like the world we live in. 


The majority of women in this world upset me in some way, particularly my age group. A lot of the girls my age have children, or go out each weekend and get drunk. Many of them have hair dyed to the point of brittleness and their faces are just so orange in contrast to their heavily mascara-d eyes. 


I suppose I'm judging them at face value, but the way alot of them speak, you wouldn't believe they'd had years of education.
And it makes me wonder, what willl the next generation be like? What will their children grow up to be like? 
It seems we are losing our free-thinking, change-making, well-rounded individuals. Although I suppose we have to wonder whether there were any in the first place. 


Now I'm not saying that these people will be bad parents, or that their children will grow up wanting to be thier parents, because as a product of a teen pregnancy with no present father during my early years...I've turned out okay. I have goals and I know my morals, despite being a little risky occasionally. 


I just feel that alot of these girls are going nowhere and it truly makes me feel disheartened about future generations. Today I saw three girls that were my age that got on the bus with prams. One girl was swearing like mad and then laughing because she thought her baby was dead this morning. She made me feel really sick. The other two were decent enough, I suppose. 


In some aspects, I feel really young in comparison and that could be to do with my anxiety disorder or maybe the fact that sometimes I struggle to look after myself let alone someone that doesn't speak, but in others I feel much older and...somewhat superior maybe. 


I don't know. Maybe I'm just a bad person. 


Apparently, the Catholics are kicking off because the Twilight Calendars show pics of half naked vampires around the church, (because in the book the head vamps are part of the Vatican or something similar) and so the Catholics feel it is a bad representation. 


How the fuck can these people say things like that? 


It is utterly ridiculous how they can get pissed at fiction but as soon as a priest touches a little boy in real life, nothing happens. 


I hate the world we live in.