Hey You

Well I feel like I havent updated in forever.
So apologies.

Euhm...I'll start with the shitty stuff first.

Last Thursday, I skived off college, went shopping and got loads of new clothes. They're all really nice.

Mum's bf came home, started being an arse over something really trivial and we had an argument. Then mum started on me too and I got my laptop removed AGAIN.
I punched the wall in anger because it was that kind of rage where you have to do something to get rid of it.
Of course, mum followed me upstairs, saw me stood heavy breathing behind the door, with my fist against the wall and asked my sister if she enjoyed sharing a room with a 'lunatic'.

Safe to stay, the night ended with a freshly cut wound on my wrist. It was pretty deep too. Blood actually flowed down my arm this time.

I stole one of her books the other day which is about a guy that tried to commit suicide several times. True story. He cut himself and that...& he explains how he feels, what cutting does for him etc.
Obviously my mum has read it...so you'd think she'd understand how I feel and stop giving me a hard time about it but clearly not. :/

Also, my friend hasnt eaten for 6 days, maybe more and I don't know how to help her anymore but I refuse to let go. I will not abandon her.

My Humanoid CD arrived in the post :D I was soooooooo incredibly happy and I havent put it down since I got it. I'm that obsessed.

My dad has only rang twice since I got out of hospital a month ago. Think he doesnt care anymore. Nice.

I've been on the pill 21 days too..so I have 7 days off now & my periods are supposed to be happening now, but they havent yet. I think there's something wrong with my insides. Boobs are killing me though.

The fanfic I've been writing for ages is nearly done :D I have a couple of paragraphs to write then it's finito...but I just can't get into the mindset of writing a heterosexual threesome. It's fairly difficult. All shall be well though.

The HPV Cervical Cancer jab is tomorrow. I'm weirdly looking forward to it. :S Then my maths resit is in a couple of week. I'm not looking forward to that strangely enough. I'm shitting myself to be honest. I'm really scared I'll fail again.

This update has been a little boring, but my next one will hopefully be better. Just not alot has happened recently.

Have to go find Robinson Crusoe now. Bastard he is.