Wrote you a song

I have coffee. :)

Coffee makes me happy.

I feel really drained today. :/ Sorta crappy. Dunno why.

But, Humanoid is nearly done so we'l be able to get it soon. I can't wait.

I was reading about it earlier and about Bill's lyric writing. It's quite inspiring.

I'd love to be able to be a lyricist. Or generally make music, but lyrics would be what I'd be strongest at...though I just can't seem to do it. I totally suck.

I used to write quite abit of poetry and stories too. They were ok. Helped me vent and stuff.

Then my depression got worse and It's not nice, dark, sombre depression where I want to write about how i feel. It's numb depression where I just wana sigh deeply and lay down. Just spread myself out everywhere. I just sit, stare out the window and contemplate suicide. I can't even write about how shitty I feel because it's not good enough to be discussed.

I just dont know.

Maybe I should start with the writing again?