I have been doing so well recently.

my relationship with my mum is entirely different. I can now see how my trauma affects me. I generally have less sudden emotional changes throughout the day.

Yet this weekend has been a killer. 

Just disappointment after disappointment.

Now Kathleen is really mad at me and I just don't know what to do. This is when the big problems come because if i don't have Kathleen I literally don't have anybody. 

I can feel the suicidal urges trickling back in.