Tuesday, 21 July 2015

Another messy ending

Day 2 of no smoking and no drinking because I'm quitting nicotine and to make that easier I also have to quit alcohol for a little while.

Day 1 without antidepressants. Not because I'm quitting those, just because I ran out.

I am struggling.

I have nothing to take the edge off and I made the mistake of going into the doctors with Kathleen and now I know for sure that I am not good enough for her. I don't help her, I probably make her worse and she is still suicidal.

I had my suspicions with her cutting but hearing her say that its getting worse really made me realise that I am not enough. Once again. I can't save her. I can't save myself. What is the point?


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